If there's one thing that has been impressed upon my heart this last year it's that God knows what I need. It hasn't been easy because, my idea of what I need and God's idea of what I need don't always match. I have caught myself rebuking God for not providing. I have often lost trust in his wisdom and knowledge of my life.

But, I am consistently brought back to the promises of His word that He is the author of wisdom; "For the Lord gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding." (Prov. 2:6) and a loving provider;. "If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?" (Matt 6:30)

My attitude used to be that of skepticism. If I didn't get thank-you's, I became worried that no one appreciated me. If I didn't get enough hugs, I thought no one loved me. Even financially, if there were more bills then income I worried that God wasn't paying attention.

Now I know that God has been working all along. He won't let me be under-fed, under-loved, or under-appreciated. He also won't let me have too much. No more, no less. For God's perfect transformational work in my life to take place He will use each detail of my life to prove He is faithful. He want's me to rest in his competence to take care of me.

I heard someone say once that they viewed God as an absent landlord. God has never been absent from your life. He truly knows what you need. Can you trust Him? Can you have confidence that even the uncomfortable situations in your life are intentionally designed by God for your benefit and ultimately for His Glory?

Whenever I don't get a compliment now, I assume I didn't need it. When I don't get enough love from humans I know I have more then enough in God. When I feel lacking in any area I turn back to God and trust Him that I already have everything I need.

-Josh